Preconception Hypochondriasis

Since we've been trying, I have become hyper sensitive to every body function and sensation that could possibly indicate pregnancy. I'm constantly looking for signs and symptoms: "I'm so tired!" (Nevermind that I didn't get any sleep last night, maybe I'm pregnant?) "Was that a wave of nausea?" (Or maybe I just need to eat something?) "I have a headache!" (Is that a sign!?) "My big toe hurts!" (Well, probably because I stubbed it on the couch.)

one at a time, thank you very much

Days late: 8
Negative pregnancy tests: 4 (including 1 blood test)

Still no period, but alas, I'm not pregnant. So now what? I've been in this situation before. For some unknown reason, I went four months without a period last year. I had to start taking birth control to regulate things, but that's no longer an option now that we're trying to make a baby. Problem is, it's a lot harder to make a baby when you have an irregular period and NO IDEA when you're going to ovulate. Harder, but not impossible.

It's only been 8 days, so I need to give it a bit more time and see what happens. I'm going to Florida for a mini vacation April 1, so I'll likely start March 31st. That's life, right? If not, we may try clomid this summer, to stimulate ovulation. I was relieved when my ob/gyn suggested this option, and even more relieved that she wasn't going to make me wait forever to try it out. HOWEVER, there is one minor detail that makes me want to wait, it's called 10% chance of twins and 1% chance of triplets OR MORE.

Now I know there are some ladies out there who'd love to have twins, but I am not one of them. I'll take my babies one at a time, thank you very much. I just can't imagine taking care of two infants at once. Especially with absolutely zero mothering experience. So, we'll keep trying on our own, and resort to the medicine when I decide I'm desparate. It's only been three months, so I'm not there yet.

Is it too early to say it's late?

Time: 1:06pm
Ounces of H2O consumed: 96
Trips to the bathroom: 5 (or maybe 6)
Period: Is it too early to say it's late?

If there's one thing I'm learning, it's patience. Although so far, I'm failing miserably. Mother nature was supposed to visit yesterday, but she's running a bit late and I'm desparate to know - WHAT DOES THIS MEAN? It could mean absolutely nothing, but it could also mean that I could be...well, you know. Anyway, she usually announces her visit during a trip to the bathroom, so I've been guzzling bottle after bottle of water and every time I get up to pee, my stomach fills with a million butterflies.

i hate pink.

We want four kiddos. And I'm hoping for at least one little girl. But I hate pink. So, I'm thinking pale baby blue, with red accents perhaps?

I LOVE this wallpaper from Romo Fabrics. I'd like to cover just one wall and paint the other three to match the blue from the wallpaper. Please God, let me have a little girl first so I can decorate the nursery like this!

wannabe mommyblogger

I have always wanted to have babies, but in the last three years, my desire has grown into an utter longing and I anxiously await the day I'll see two cute little lines on that cute little pee-stick.

Since I think about this a lot these days, I've decided I'll start recording this journey to mommyland.